I’ve been doing pretty well on changing up my wardrobe, but still somethings missing. I want to take more risks. I’m about to start this 30 day workout plan, not to loose weight but to put more muscle than fat, i’m pretty flabby. I want to look pretty good when Dylan and I go to the pinas this summer. I am having an outrageous amount of confidence issues with my body lately, but that’s because I’ve been putting on weight, and my metobolism isn’t what it was. Hopefully I will be able to achieve what I want in the next six months since there isn’t that much to work on.
back to the clothes, more risks.. I really need to let go of some of the things in my closet, but personally it’s so hard.. I have like 2 garbage bags full of clothes I don’t use for sure anymore, and I think that there’s a lot more that should go in.. I just can’t pinpoint what.. I seriously can’t fit anything in my closet anymore. So I need to try and try.. okay I guess that’s all.. let me try to organize my closet again and see what I dispose of.
late last year my mom had stage 1 cancer, and it has been removed (thankfully)
just recently, my aunt had the same type of cancer and that was removed as well
and just a couple days ago, my dad went to the e.r.
people just really don’t understand how to treat other people, and luckily I have built tough skin, because of what’s been going on with my life… there are bigger more important things than high school like drama. Its just really dumb that people expect so much from someone who’s going through a lot.
luckily i get to get away from this place next month
and for a long time in the summer.
for now though, i am just going to sit and soak in all the happiness that I can.
it’s 2 a.m. and I just said bye (for now) to Dylan.
I love our relationship so much, and I am so happy with it.. just times like these.. the right now moments I am sad. Reality is coming back and our relationship is back to where it usually is, 1000 miles apart. But it’s okay.. tomorrow I am booking my flight for February, and I am beyond excited. One month isn’t that long. Then he comes home for March, his spring break. Then he’s home in May..
Communicating with your kid on facebook should not be accepted, especially when its about me not be home or this or that, its completely stupid. As I said, if its not one thing, its another. First it was about asking for too much money when you put me in a chiropractic program and I am in school, next its not being home enough when 1. I just started school this week, and 2. I am in a long distance relationship slash friendship and we rarely see each other throughout the year. its just a constant rotation and I am so sick of it, I dont know what to do with myself. they are seriously not letting me grow up. My parents are happiest if I am at church or sitting at home in front of my computer, not spending money, or seeing other people.
but Dylan and I had a talk while we were at wingstop, and he’s just as dead serious about coming to the Philippines with me, (he chose this over a eurotrip and that is definitely somethin!) I hope this all works out for the summer, it would be amazing to travel to places with him in a place where I have lived and loved. I hope he feels the same, and I hope this actually happens. It would be a great way to celebrate our three years together, and it would just be an amazing experience over all. I pray this happens, I have never wanted anything so much.